I didn't like the wing collar of the old shirt, so I got the new lay-down collar shirt. I like it much, much better. My bow tie doesn't look sad anymore. :P

Current Mood: debonair

Telling us why you're going to fail before you attempt is never wise. But is not honest always the preferred choice? . . . Excessive honesty can be disastrous, particularly in a commander. Indeed. Knowing your own limitations is one thing, advertising them to a crew can damage your credibility as a leader. Because you will lose their confidence? And you may begin to believe those limitations yourself.

I'm completing my Goosebumps book collection, and I'm going through and discarding a few old books. This is a very good book written by Frank and Ollie; it's hardcover. I originally bought it when I thought I might pursue animation as a backup career to acting, but neither has materialized yet. I since stopped improving my drawing skills, which is fine because the damn industry changed anyway.

So, does anybody want this book?


http://www.amazon.com/Illusion-Life-Disney-Animation/dp/0786860707/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1262201414&sr=8-1

I am feeling a bit cynical. Not as cynical as I could be though. I think after the breakup I've been concentrating on exactly what I write in my LJ. I'm considering other people too much when I write in my own journal, which is just fucked up. I don't want to start any flame wars or unnecessary debates, but I won't apologize for my opinion or my Life. There's something to be said about politely entertaining others' opinions, but there's also something to be said about worrying too much what people online think of you. Other than that, things are looking generally good, but that's for a private entry.

That title's been floating around my head for awhile, and I haven't had a public entry in awhile, so there ya go.

Current Mood: cynical

I heard back from some of my voice over leads. One of them is a news anchor here for CBS channel 8 who said he wanted to help me and sent a hundred blogs and articles and ads for people who aren't really anybody. One of the links was for www.vo-bb.com, which, ironically (and sadly) enough, has a voice over on a little flash intro. I was looking for a way to mock this with Evan, but it seems LJ phone posting is it for now, so I made a public entry. Evan and I are having a long conversation on gmail chat. Maybe I'm pretentious, and if I am I don't really give a shit, but mostly I'm venting about my disappointment in the game that people in the industry get wrapped up in.

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Me:	Alrighy.
	10:15.
	STOP!
Evan:	Hammer time?
Me:	Shower time.
Evan:	*smacks you*
	Never use MC Hammer's name in vain like that.

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Good Will Hunting Written by Matt Damon & Ben Affleck Will (Matt Damon): You're a first year grad student. You just got finished reading some Marxian historian, Pete Garrison probably. You're gonna be convinced of that until next month when you get to James Lemon, then you're gonna be talking about how the economies of Virginia and Pennsylvania were entrepreneurial and capitalist way back in 1740. That's gonna' last until next year, you're gonna be in here regurgitating Gordon Wood, talking about ya know, the Pre-Revolutionary utopia and the capital forming effects of military mobilization. Wood drastically underestimates the impact of social distinctions predicated upon wealth, especially inherited wealth. You got that from Vickers. "Work in Essex County," page 98, right? Yeah, I read that too. Were you going to plagiarize the whole thing for us? Do you have any thoughts of your own on this matter? Or do you? Is that you thing? You come into a bar, you read some obscure passage, and then pretend. You pawn it off as your own, as your own idea just to impress some girl and embarrass my friend? You see, the sad thing about a guy like you is that in 50 years, you're gonna start doing some thinking on your own and you're gonna come up with the fact that there are two certainties in life. One: don't do that. And two: you dropped a 150 grand on a fuckin’ education you could have gotten for a dollar fifty in late charges at the public library. Yeah, I won’t have a degree, but at least I won't be unoriginal.

I don't know if I've said it before, but I think Tamarus is a really cool street name.

My parents arrive for a three-day stay tomorrow. (They're staying at Excalibur.) I'm cleaning my apartment a bit before they get here. Swiffer Wet Jet is rocking my world. It's perfect for what I need. Even goes under open doors.

I always said that if they were to make a movie of Mega Man, Wayne Newton should play Mega Man. No one ever believes me. Well who's laughing now?!

Happy birthday, tania!

Been stuck in my head:

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Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Nom Nom Nom (YouTube)

I had a dream the other day that alligators were eating my keys. I found this to be an odd dream, so I looked up the symbology. Apparently alligators represent fear of an unfavorable reaction to something you do or say, and keys represent communication or access with somebody. It makes sense. I've been tapering off LJ lately. It used to be I'd make three or four reports each day to write down my thoughts and feelings, and in so doing I'd understand them better. But then I got the feeling anybody on my friends list was judging me for any passing thought, and I felt like I had to justify any choice I made, so I started putting a lot into private entries. Now I'm just posting less. I catch up on my friends page every-other day or so now, but I get the feeling people will take offense to any support, advice, or input I have to offer, when I'm just trying to be a friend.

So... I read, but I skim, and I post, but it's private. I used to want to open up and share myself with all my online friends, most of whom go way back with me, but now it seems like it's none of anybody's business. :P I worry that I'll get LJ comments, and then I worry that I won't get LJ comments, and then I realize it's totally stupid and solve the problem by disabling comments or making the entry private. I... guess I just don't trust my online friends as much anymore. No offense folks, I'm just not as comfortable putting myself on the Internet as much. I do want to meet people on my friends list and have the friendship be more than 1s and 0s, but I was always the only one, and if that ever happens, it makes me mighty vulnerable. I keep hoping that one day soon I'll just be more self confident and won't really care what people online think, but for now I still care too much about them/you all to make emotionally-involved entries. This one is a bit scary for me now.

I went to Peter Piper Pizza yesterday with Lindsey. I haven't been there since I was a kid. They pulled them all out of Utah. The pizza was just as good as I remembered, but the arcade games were just as lame as I expected. I wasted the rest of my tokens on crooked claw games.

I went to an initial services job yesterday but had to bid it because it was over the allowable. It's a nice house too, but I need approval before I can proceed. The coordinator on the order wasn't in, so I said I'd provide written bids, which I should have done yesterday but really will force myself to do this morning. As soon as I get a break from work, I get another that needs to be done two days later, and usually I'm busy with other orders or laundry or such.

I'm actually almost out of money and have requested another $2,000 buffer from my parents while I wait for checks in the mail. Got a reply just now actually, About the $2000 loan. I understand the pinch you're in and yes, we can help out. I'll transfer $2000 to your personal account right away. Again, Michael and I are very proud of you and think you're doing awesome. I'm very appreciative of the closeness and openness I have with my parents now. I didn't used to be able to let them see me, but when I moved to Vegas, I also was able to sort out years of twisting and knotting in my parental relationship. Not many people get a second chance after they lose their parents.

My T-Mobile phone is dead. I recycled the battery at Office Depot and enjoyed ripping the phone in twain with my bare hands. One less bill to pay.

I love driving the Subaru after a week or so of driving just the truck. It's so heavy and handles well. It's like driving a Porsche again. I got my first Vegas car wash after three months of living in the dirt. I was nervous about the brooms they used scratching my paint and the conveyor belt screwing with my AWD, since when one tire on a Subby rotates, they all have to. But they actually did a really good job cleaning it.

I got a new reusable bag from Albertson's for when I go grocery shopping. Something printed on the bag (and I don't remember what now) makes me almost regret that choice. I'm just trying to cut down on plastic, not pledge support for... tofu.

I bought $25 worth of junk food from the Shell station across the street the other day. I wonder if I'm not addicted. That's the second time I did something like that. I should probably go a week without junk food starting Sunday just to be sure.

Current Mood: nervous

I'm nearly done with the shelves. The plyboard is a little flimsy, and I'm thinking of just laying another layer on plyboard over each shelf for support, but I don't intend of keeping anything overly heavy on the shelves. I went to Lowes three times in one day for nuts and bolts. Some of the nuts in the drawer are inferior and won't screw onto the bolts. I went back and stole a few better nuts on one of my trips. I still felt they owed me for gas and effort. But maybe it was karma that I had to go back twice more and get more nuts and bolts because I was distracted and miscounted what I needed.

I'm just about caught up with work. There's one cup-shaped thing I need to remove from a property, but that won't take long. I'm getting worried I won't get any big trashouts. My invoices for March total almost $5,000 which is my gross goal, but then in April (when I've run out of money) I'm going to start calculating cost too, and that's what worries me. I can't live off of grass cuts alone. They really hurt my wrist after awhile, and I've got a really dark tan on my forearms and neck. It's not worth going all over the valley to trim weeds every day. I think I'll email FAS and let them know I'm looking for initial services orders.

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Learn about the Force (John Williams)

The universe is right right now. Everything is as it should be.

Current Mood: content
Current Music: WALL-E's hat dance (in my head)